could it be HATRED????

melalui HIDUP baru ni agak susah la... mcm2 perasaan yg aku rasa.... tapi as usual, the FELLING IS ALL TO MYSELF.... saper je yg leh faham kan??? I'm not taking the risk of depending towards someone else, coz all my life, ALONE is the best friend ever... so, a new FEELING EMERGE....in the middle of GRIEVING, aku rasa HATRED... rasa mcm perasaan ALIEN lak biler tiba2 ada rasa mcm tue... its for someone.. someone i KNEW.. we always have been like that b4, tapi entah kenapa now, perasaan tue agak memuncak... aku pun xpaham.. aku try positif kan everything but it getting into my nerve!!!!! entah kenapa, aku rasa sgt2 sgt3 sgt4 MENYAMPAH n HATRED!!!!! Fuck man!!! Hated the fact that it is FUCKINGLY disturbing me!!!! aku rasa mcm nak pijak2 je muka dia!!! PERGH!!! aku sndri terkejut ngn statement aku yg ni!!! calm ekin, calm!!! Just drift away je la... lallalallalallaa!! FUCK!!!